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Thanks for ListeningI feel it once again coursing through me...the desire to escape. I've been an escapist all my life. I really related to Luke in "Empire Strikes Back" when Yoda said, "Always looking away. Never wear you are!" Or something like that.
Course I've been trying hard to stay focused. But too many things get in the way. I love travelling, but right now, it's not even travelling, it's escaping. Next weekend, we're going to Texas Scottish Festival in DFW, but it's not enough, it seems.
Plus, there's so much I want to do. I want to make my arts my life. But it always comes back to money. I'm just not making enough right now on my own. And I haven't figured out yet how to change that.
Well, not entirely true. I have a few good ideas, but I just can't seem to get them off the ground. Take photography for instance. How I'd LOVE to sell my photos! But I haven't found a good way to do that yet, nor can I afford to print them let alone do much else. Guess I could see about submitting them to magazines, but I feel swamped as it is.
Need to promote our CD release and still want to record. It's funny though. Last night, I got home, had a few plans, but I could barely get out and do them. Just was too exhausted. I wanted to pass out more than anything.
Course I also didn't get much sleep the night before. How I wish I could stay up all the time and never have to sleep, but I can't. As soon as I try, I get another sinus infection.
So it's a never-ending trial, but you know what the real kicker is? I have a few projects that could probably make me a decent income, but the problem is I won't get off my arse and complete them! It's as if my subconcious is longing for a life of mediocrity. Just when I'm on the brink of accomplishing big goals, I take a step back, and it all disappears. Some self-defeating mechanism of mine.
That's the reason I have an intern for the Brobdingnagian Bards. I have a LOT to do, but in order for me to reach some of these goals, I haven't yet learned how to do it alone, and yet, I don't like to ask for help. Fortunately, the intern idea was someone elses, and it just made sense.
Heck, one of the reasons I decided to ask Johannes to produce my album was so that I could get it done, and now, I don't even think I can afford to hook up with him, not unless I can raise a good $300 before the end of the month? Not likely.
Course, I am trying to book another gig at Cafe Mundi, and if I had six CDs of my own to sell... WHOA! I could do fairly well at Cafe Mundi. I sold a bunch of CDs at my last show, but the prob is that I don't have six CDs. That is all Bard Income. Which brings me back to my photography.
Guess, I could always rent my photo services. Anyone wanting out here wanting some fantastic shots of you or someone you know? Bard photographer (or would that make me a Bard Flasher?) for hire: $150 photo shoot, get a nice CD full of great shots of you? Anyone? Okay, maybe not.
Ah well, I guess it's time to find some folks with discriminating ears to come hang out while I record? Meantime, I'll see if I can make any of this possible. Thanks for listening...
Posted by Marc Gunn on Tuesday, June 03, 2003 |
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